Hello, everyone. I’m not really back from my break yet, I’m still dealing with some stuff, but I wanted to take a minute to reflect. Specifically on Nick.
I always dreamt of a fairytale, once in a lifetime, Corey and Topanga kind of love. I would watch Disney movies when I was little and be captivated by the love story. I always wanted to fall in love. In real love that consumes you. Your every thought, your every breath. The kind of love that you can depend on, but their kiss sets your soul on fire. Like the first kiss in a Disney movie. Every. Single. Time.
Nick isn’t just my husband. He’s my confidant, my best friend, my partner in crime, my shoulder to cry on, my laugh when I don’t even want to smile. He’s my everything, you guys.
I have never in my life had anyone that had my back like he does. He really loves me. Truly and unconditionally. And I’ve never had that. He loves me so much that he does things just because he knows I care about them. For instance, he sat there by my side through every contraction of labor with my surro baby. He went to every appointment, he signed things and took of work and did every single thing asked of him. Just because I wanted to be a surrogate and he knew how much that meant to me. For the past 9 days he has sat with me in the bathroom at 6AM scrutinizing pregnancy tests, tilting them, squinting, trying to see a line that wasn’t there. Because he knows how bad I wanted it to be there.
He’s changed my life in so many ways. All for the better of course. He made me a mother. And a wife. He made my relationship with God strong again. He has believed in me like no one else has and gave me the confidence to strive for things I didn’t think I was capable of before. He never pushed me or made me do anything I didn’t want to. He just loved me. And made me a better person.
I can’t explain to you guys how much he means to me because there’s simply no words for the intense love I have for him. I have so much passion and feelings that it feels like I can physically feel the chaos of emotion inside of me. He saved my life. I’m so grateful for him. I always dreamt of a fairytale, once in a lifetime, Corey and Topanga kind of love. And now I’m living that dream.
Happy 5th anniversary, baby. I am even more crazy in love with you than I was 5 years ago at that courthouse. 💕💕💕💕