January Favorites

Hello, dolls. I figured while I’m on a roll, I’ll go ahead and share my January Favorites. Let’s jump in!

1. This necklace

Ami, my very best friend in the entire world (other than Nick) got me this necklace for Christmas. It’s GORGEOUS! And those little beads mean “BFF” in Morse code. And she got a matching one! This is exactly my style. Dainty but still cute and noticeable. All I have to say is I have the best best friend ever and I’m glad she’s mine. 🙂❤️

2. SEDU Shampoo and Conditioner

I also got this from my best friend. I absolutely love the way this makes my hair feel after I use it. No matter how I style it, blow dry or air dry, use heat like a curling wand or straightener or nothing, it always feels so voluminous and healthy and bouncy. And it smells good too. When I pull my hair down from a ponytail or bun I love smelling it because it smells just like these products. SO good!

3. Theorie Marula Oil Transforming Hair Serum

I like to use this on my hair no matter how I’m styling it. When I curl it, it keeps the curls nice and tight and moisturized. When I straighten it, it keeps everything sleek. When I use it on my natural wavy texture it keeps the frizz at bay. And it smells delicious. I’ll use it on second day Hair to get an extra day out of my style. I use it on Bella’s hair too.

4. L’Oréal Lumi Glotion

I got mine in the shade Fair Glow for obvious reasons but I love this! It’s light weight and comfortable but it gives this beautiful glow to the skin. I use it all the time but I especially love it when I’m sick because it kind of brings my skin back to life a little bit.

I think that’s all. I’ve racked my mind for a while now and I can’t come up with anything else that I’ve particularly loved this month. I hate that this post is so short so but I promise I’ll make up for it! Thanks so much for reading and hanging out with me. I’ll see y’all soon!


2017 Faves

Hello, loves! Again, while it’s early in the year, I thought I would share my 2017 Favorites with you all. This isn’t going to be just makeup or beauty, but just things I was loving in general last year. Let’s get to it!

1. TC leggings from Lula Roe/Charlie’s project and Boyfriend Tees from Old Navy

It’s no secret that I gained weight this year. These clothes are so comfortable and flattering to waistline that I’m not so comfortable with right now. They can be dressed up or down depending on what other articles of clothing you’re mixing them with and they never let me down. Loveee these!!

2. Black Opium by YSL and Light Blue by D&G

These are two scents that I LOVED last year. (And still!) I’m always on the hunt for samples of either because the full sized of both are so expensive! BUT while they are pricey, they always for the occasion, no matter if you’re just going out for drinks with your closest girlfriend or going on a hot date. They are so sophisticated without reminding me of my grandma if that makes sense. I just love the way I feel when I wear either of these perfumes!

3. The Morphe x Jaclyn Hill Palette

It’s public knowledge that this palette is the bees knees. It has all of he warm tones I love and even some fun pops of color and some colors that are out of my comfort zone and make me push my creativity a little bit, which I am always wanting to do. I find myself sitting down to do my makeup thinking, “I’m going to use a different palette today. I need to get some use out of my other palettes!” And going back to this one anyway. Lol. I just can’t help it. I’m in love. 😍😍😍😍

4. The Huda Beauty Textured Shadows Palette Rose Gold Edition

This is another palette that I just keep drifting back to. The Textured Shadows are so beautiful and foiled. They almost come across as glitter. The matters are so deliciously smooth and blendable yet pigmented. It’s a dream.

5. Tarte Shape Tape Concealer

Do I even have to write an explanation here? It’s so full coverage and blendable but doesn’t crease. It never lets me down. Holy grail for sure!

6. Play! By Sephora

This is a monthly subscription box that never disappoints. They give out a makeup bag as well as 4-5 sample/travel and sometimes even full sized high end products. This is my favorite subscription box, and I’ve tried a lot of subscription boxes. It’s my favorite time of the month is when I finally get my box! SO much fun!!

7. The ColourPop Birthday Collection

I’ve really enjoyed the birthday collection from ColourPop this year. The shadows (both presses and SSS) have performed great, but the SSS has most definitely been my favorite. It’s a Rose Gold glittery pot of beautiful-ness. The highlight was gorgeous as well. I wear that a lot. And the glosses are so much fun to add a little pop of funk to a look.

8. Essential oils and a diffuser

I got a little kit on sale at Walmart a few months ago and I’ve been using it so much. I use it to make my house smell good or to make myself feel better (like if I’m nauseous I’ll diffuse some peppermint and that usually helps with nausea) I’ll diffuse lavender to help relax my kids or even myself, and I like to diffuse oils when I’m cleaning. I’m not sure why but it makes everything feel cleaner. I love this for so many reasons and can’t wait to get more oils!

I think that’s all my favorites for last year. If I think of something I missed I’ll let you guys know for sure! Thank you all so so much for reading and I’ll see you next time!!

2018 Goals

Hello, darlings. I know I’m a little late to the party but I decided while it was still early in the year, I would tell you some of my goals for the year of 2018.

1. Spend more time with my parents.

After the events of 2018 so far, I’ve realized what my emotions are towards my parents. I want and need to spend more time with them. No matter what.

2. Go to church

Something else I realized while my mom was in the hospital is how much I rely on God. I don’t want to only call on him when I’m in need, but praise him all the time. This was a promise I made to him if he kept my mom alive. He made good on his promise so I have to make good on mine.

3. Spend more time with my kids

I want them to not only think of me as the punisher or the person that’s making them do chores or homework, but as the person that laughs with them and plays dolls or cars with them. I want them to have good memories to look back on.

4. Become somewhat present in social media

I want to become active on here again. And as I’ve teased to you guys, I’m starting a YouTube channel. I want to be consistent on there as well. I want to have an audience of friends that watch/read and love and support each other. I want to have an escape.

5. Either get pregnant or lose 20 pounds

You guys know I’ve been trying to get pregnant for the Surrogacy stuff and I’m still trying to, but these meds I have to do for the IVF have made me gain weight. So, this year I want to either make that weight gain worth it and give this family the baby they want so badly, or lose this weight.

6. Be happy 🙂

think that’s all for today, guys. If I think of anything else, I’ll update y’all. 😉 Thank you guys so much for reading. I’ll see you soon!

My Chaotic Life Update

Hello, lovelies. This is going to be a hard post to make. I want to let you all in on everything that has been going on in my life recently, but that’s going to be hard without stirring up emotions as well as sounding like I’m just complaining. Just try to keep in mind that I’m just trying to bring you guys up to speed. I’m not just complaining about how everything has sucked.

Okay, so let’s start from my last post. It was at the end of November. I actually did another transfer for my Surrogacy journey 12/6. I put my whole heart into that transfer. I tested and tested and tested. I started to get positives. Then, just as quickly as they came, they faded. I had what’s called a chemical pregnancy. Basically I got pregnant and miscarried before I could even get to my blood test. That was really, REALLY hard for me. Now the doctor wants me to get a hysteroscopy done, which i understand. It just sucks because I have to be put to sleep for it. It’s a surgery. Which makes things a lot harder. Nick and I have to take off, we have to find a babysitter and someone to get Bella off the bus, and it’s just a lot. I know I shouldn’t be complaining about this I just want to transfer again. I just feel like this is unnecessary. I know the doctor knows what she is doing and she thinks this is best so I know it is, I just can’t help but be eager to try again.

Then, my guinea pigs had babies on 12/15. That was a good thing until I couldn’t find anyone that wanted any of the babies. Now I don’t have enough room for 7 guinea pigs, but don’t really have another option. So that’s stressful. It’s a personal problem, I know, but it’s still frustrating.

Then, towards the end of December, I got sick. I usually get sick about twice a year. When the seasons change my asthma will act up and I’ll get bronchitis. I went to the doctor and they told me I had a cold. Told me to wait it out. So I did. I started to get a little better but never fully recovered before my whole family was hit with the flu. Nick, Ethan, Bella, and I were all out of commission for a while. I’m still down, but I’m the last one that’s not better yet.

I started making videos for YouTube. (That is still in the making, I’m just trying to get an archive of videos before I start posting so I don’t miss any upload days Incase life gets crazy again) I really like making videos and editing. And I can’t wait to get back to that as soon as I get better and all the other stuff calms down! So be on the lookout for that!

In between my 2 bouts of illness, my mom called me and told me my dad was sick and was asking what I think she should do. I told her to take him to get checked out because he has heart problems and is older. She said she was feeling good either but wasn’t as bad as my dad. She is a diabetic and had a diabetic ulcer on her foot also. She took my dad to the ER early the next morning (I’m guessing the doctor wasn’t open and my dad was still going to try to work that day.) while my dad was getting checked out and treated my mom decided she would get her foot checked out too. She was about to be discharged (still hooked up to the monitors and everything) when she went into full cardiac arrest. Everyone rushed in and performed CPR for 12 minutes before they got a pulse back only for her to lose it again for another 3 minutes. They finally got her pulse stable enough to move her upstairs to the cardiovascular ICU. The next 4 or 5 days were a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts and fear and prayers. We didn’t think she was going to make it for a while. That scared me. You might think obviously that scared you, but my mom and I didn’t really have a good relationship so I had to realize that I wasn’t okay with her dying. Not that I would ever want her to die, but it was something I knew could happen for a long time because of things that I don’t want to get into right now. But I had always thought I would be okay when the time came. I wasn’t. And I had to deal with that on top of possibly losing my mom. God had his hand on her and eventually she was taken off of the ventilator and the sedatives and now she’s awake. She is still in the hospital and mentally, she isn’t all the way there, but we’re working on it. And I’m grateful for that. So SO grateful for that.

Then, I woke up one day and two of my guinea pigs babies were dead. I really can’t explain why or what happened. I fed them spinach the night before and everyone was happy and healthy then the next morning they weren’t. It happened right after we got hit with the flu so I googled if guinea pigs could catch colds or the flu from humans and it turns out they can and it’s usually fatal, so that’s the only thing I can think of. RIP babies. We love you.

Yeah. I think that’s all the craziness that has happened lately. Well at least the important stuff. The last two months have been really hard for me. That’s why I want to do the beauty care package swap. Because I need some positivity in my life. Thank you guys for listening. I know it’s a lot and I haven’t even been around lately and I’m sorry. But as you can see, things are hard right now. Thanks for reading. I’ll see you guys soon.

Beauty Care Package Swap??

Hey, guys! I know it’s been a long time and I said I was back but things have been hard and crazy and life has been so chaotic recently. I’ll get into all that in another post, but nothing makes me happier than makeup and beauty items. So for now, who wants to do a beauty/makeup care package swap?? Because my life has been so crazy, i feel like I need a pick me up. I need a care package. Let make a swap out of it! If I get multiple replies then I’ll try to match people up accordingly so everyone can participate.

Here are the guidelines:

  • US only. I’m sorry international friends! I promise to do a swap that’s open internationally soon but right now I can’t do that. 😦
  • There has to be a budget. This means you’ll spend at least the budget amount plus shipping. I’m thinking $50? Because most things even in the drugstore these days are at least $15 so I figured $50 would give room to get a variety of things in there. Should t be higher so we can go a little bigger?
  • There also has to be a date that we are required to ship by. Maybe March 1st? That will give us all enough time to shop and even order things online to put in the package if we want.

I think I covered everything. If you want to participate, just leave your email in the comments below and I’ll email you a questionnaire that I (or whoever you get matched with) will use to buy your gifts! Thank you guys for participating and reading. I love y’all! I’m excited guys! Yay!

Some Looks I’ve Done 

Hello, loves! I thought I would compile some of the looks I’ve done since I’ve been on this break. Here we go! 

This is a super glowy look I did for a gender reveal party I went to. (Spoiler alert: it’s a boy!) I used the Huda Beauty Textured Shadows Palette Rose Gold Edition to create a halo eye and Cover FX Custom Enhancing Drops in Moonlight mixed with Blow Me Out from the Colourpop Birthday Collection for my highlight. I loved this look because I hadn’t used the Huda Beauty palette in a while and it was nice to use it. I missed it!

This was just an average work day look. I used my go to tried and true products for this. I used Makeup Geek shadow in Frappe in the crease, L’Oréal Infallible shadow in Amber Rush on the lid, and Makeup Geek shadow in Shimma Shimma for the Brow bone and inner corner highlights. 

Here’s another halo eye I did. (I’ve been loving these lately!) I used the Morphe x Jaclyn Hill palette for this look. Starting with the pukey color in the crease and working my way to the richer cranberry shades for the inner and outer corners and of course blending everything together seamlessly using several colors in between those two shades. I used a nice cool tones gold in the middle. I love pairing a cool toned gold like this with deep burgundy and cranberry shades like this. Especially this time of year. This color combo just screams fall to me. I’m wearing Nudestix in Stone on my lips here. 

I believe I used the Morphe x KathleenLights Palette. Either that or the Morphe x Jaclyn Hill Palette. My wings got kinda out of control this day but I rocked it none the less. Lol. 

Sorry for the horrible pictures of this look. I believe I used the Morphe 35O Palette for the crease and outer lid. I used the Laura Mercier Caviar Stick in Rose Gold for the inner 2/3 of the lid. And just blended all the edges. I liked this look. It’s different from what I usually do and it’s always refreshing to use products you don’t use often. 
That’s all I have for today. I hope you guys liked this post. I’ll see you soon! 

I’m Back! 

Hi, everyone! I wanted to let you guys know that I’m back! I’m sorry I was gone so long. That break was definitely longer than I intended for it to be. I’ll update more in my next Surrogacy Saturday post. I’m not sure if I’ll be posting daily or what my schedule will be but I miss blogging. Thank you guys for loving me through this. I’ll see you guys tomorrow! 

With My Whole Heart For My Whole Life

Hello, everyone. I’m not really back from my break yet, I’m still dealing with some stuff, but I wanted to take a minute to reflect. Specifically on Nick.

I always dreamt of a fairytale, once in a lifetime, Corey and Topanga kind of love. I would watch Disney movies when I was little and be captivated by the love story. I always wanted to fall in love. In real love that consumes you. Your every thought, your every breath. The kind of love that you can depend on, but their kiss sets your soul on fire. Like the first kiss in a Disney movie. Every. Single. Time.

Nick isn’t just my husband. He’s my confidant, my best friend, my partner in crime, my shoulder to cry on, my laugh when I don’t even want to smile. He’s my everything, you guys.

I have never in my life had anyone that had my back like he does. He really loves me. Truly and unconditionally. And I’ve never had that. He loves me so much that he does things just because he knows I care about them. For instance, he sat there by my side through every contraction of labor with my surro baby. He went to every appointment, he signed things and took of work and did every single thing asked of him. Just because I wanted to be a surrogate and he knew how much that meant to me. For the past 9 days he has sat with me in the bathroom at 6AM scrutinizing pregnancy tests, tilting them, squinting, trying to see a line that wasn’t there. Because he knows how bad I wanted it to be there.

He’s changed my life in so many ways. All for the better of course. He made me a mother. And a wife. He made my relationship with God strong again. He has believed in me like no one else has and gave me the confidence to strive for things I didn’t think I was capable of before. He never pushed me or made me do anything I didn’t want to. He just loved me. And made me a better person.

I can’t explain to you guys how much he means to me because there’s simply no words for the intense love I have for him. I have so much passion and feelings that it feels like I can physically feel the chaos of emotion inside of me. He saved my life. I’m so grateful for him. I always dreamt of a fairytale, once in a lifetime, Corey and Topanga kind of love. And now I’m living that dream.

Happy 5th anniversary, baby. I am even more crazy in love with you than I was 5 years ago at that courthouse. 💕💕💕💕

Taking a small break

Hey guys,

I don’t want to just go MIA, so here I am. I’m going to take a small break. Things aren’t looking good from the transfer and I don’t think it worked. I’m stressed and upset. I hope you understand.